Satya Sai baba died :(

So some holy saint died couple of days back for which the whole country is filled with grief and sorrow.Fine! that is their faith regardless of how hollow or strong it is.India is democratic country,we are free to choose our religion,our God.. bla bla.All big talks.
Few years back Taslima Nasreen was thrown out of her country like a stray dog.sorry bitch.Her fault was that she said something against a God and then India gave her shelter.Fine.Some people say that Allah and Jesus both comes under this very own baba.Even that is fine.No Offense still.(I don't expect anything wiser than this from the people whose expectation from God are just some sorcerers tricks).Now Narendra Modi is one of the great follower of baba (remember how eager he was to give shelter to Nasreen against some extreme muslims of bangaladesh).Lately Nasreen was found slamming this baba and the people who followed him.
Moral of the story is i would live to see the reaction of Modi on this..

Exploitation

Now i come to know the pros and cons of working in an IT company.Earlier i used to think lavish lifestyle,lucrative salary and glamour are the essence of this industry but forgot to think about the other side of the coin which is nothing but the harsh reality.I started my work in this project with lots of enthusiasm which never seemed to cease out.I worked really hard because of which i am really proud of myself.I worked on the whole project right from the beginning till the end and made it working.Believe my guys that was an incredible task by a fresher coming from a Non CS background.However my boss just fail to acknowledge this effort "officially".Just because some bloody idiot has made some obscure rules for this rating system.You cannot award all the guys in a team with rating 4.Others in my team seems like either they were denied by the whole world or have decided to live in austerity.They work like hell.The irony is that even boss recognize me of my indefatigable effort but not officially.After working for 12-14 hrs daily and not even getting reward for it is really demoralizing.No man i am not crying but i am just searching a good reason to run away from this jungle.

When my friends tell me that you are changed i don't know in what respect they say like that.My childhood friends who saw me 8-9 years before, they are of the opinion that now i am much mature and talk much wisely and that is quite obvious.Why the hell they ask such questions.Can't they see that a person has been transformed from a boy to a man after he gets a job.Why they expect that the person will still sit till late night and involved in a conversation which takes you nowhere.Why they expect he will still not be ashamed in discussing about the figure of the best girl seen on that day.Yes friends i am talking about the change that we all experience when we get the job.If the person is not experiencing change he has just wasted his time.This is in the same way that an old person wishing to be as young as 30 years before.What about so many years of experience and knowledge he has gained in the last 30 years.

My unforgettable days

I came outside all alone at 7.00 'o clock in the morning.I was trying to reach office which was the most difficult thing i was going to do after a long time.My training got extended by 15 days because i didnt perform well in the first time.Till then i had always been accompanied by hussain in the morning but on that day he had to go to a new office.I was left all alone.I went to the same canteen for breakfast but it was not the same one.No acquaintance was there.All new faces .Believe me it was such a detestable part of the training that i never wants to remove this from my chapter of life because it has shown me to face new challenges,to believe on two most important words 'i can' and to work hard.Now i am out of this but i cant forget these most ordeal days of my life.Someone said it right "the darkest moment of the night is just before the dawn".

fed up of this training

I have never been so eager to work. fed up of all these classes and exams,i feel like singing a song "we dont need no education".Telling you truth this is completely destroying my abilities.Instead of nurturing my superb brain and honing my talent,it made me a clumsy,lazy,useless sloth.The first thing which comes to my mind when i reach office is sleep.Oh God i dont know when this will get over. i want it ASAP.

prodigal

So i got my first salary in this job after a long time(2 months).What a relief was that. but then many things came into my mind.My shoes were creaked out,i am running short of pants etc.Suddenly the effect of the sun seems to increased by almost double and whole of my skin is getting tan.Then suddenly i realised about my odour,eye protection etc.So epitomizing all of this i spent around 3000 Rs.Oh shit!! buddy what i did .I thought this time i would save money but then i saw my my room partner who spent around 10000 Rs for nothing.hahahaha.he doesn't know that he is a fool.

depression

well,i still remember my days when i was in amu.so good and joyous were the days that there was not a single hint of tension.i still miss that period.That was not like utopia. i had many of my friends who where so depressed and pessimist that i always used to wonder that how they could be like that.
Now things are changed.I can feel the immense pressure a mind can handle.i can understand the problem with the people who used to commute daily from this place to that.i dont know why such things are coming to my mind but yes i can feel the pain.Its beautiful.After a long time i am feeling this.
All great personalities had depression but this doesn't define them,the quality is how they handle them.Abraham lincoln was a great man.His power to overcome with the depression was extraordinary.On the contrary,Van gogh, the famous painter was unable to handle that and committed suicide.We can understand that temptation that makes a person to do such henious crime like suicide.Virginia woolf had committed suicide we all know but the way she did that was very uncommon.She filled her pockets with heavy stones and drowned herself.Some people became popular just because they committed suicide example kurt cobain.For the people who wants beauty,the condition of marlyn monroe was pathetic at the time of death.
So if you are feeling that kind of pain,feel it as much as you can.This is one of the best pain of the world.Don't try to avoid that.Keep it as your shadow.This will help you in your near future.